Improvement

Dear Baby,

I think there might be a little improvement on the cold this morning. I feel a little better than I have the past couple days when I woke up. Maybe I'll do the exercise video. I'm not sure yet. I sometimes wonder if you can feel my sneezing. I think you are still only six weeks along, which means you're only actually four weeks. I think your heart will start beating today. How very exciting! Your little poppy-seed sized heart will start fluttering. Sometimes I think I can feel you inside of me already, but I know you're not exactly moving yet. My little M&M sized baby. I hope you grow strong and happy. :) I look forward to the day I get to hold you in my arms. You're going to be the most beautiful baby in the world. :) I know it.

Love,
Mom

Cold

Dear Baby,

I often wondered what it would feel like to be pregnant with you, but now that I am pregnant, I can't seem to feel any of the symptoms. It's because of this cold that I have. I think it's either suppressing the symptoms or I'm just not noticing because of how miserable I am with these cold symptoms. I don't think I'm running a high enough fever to call for going to the hospital, but I did call them today because I was worried about you. They just told me to take some tylenol and rest. I think resting this afternoon helped a little, but I'm still feeling pretty crappy. I wonder if I should go get checked for an infection or something, but I don't think it is because I am still snotting clear...mostly. Just a little yellowish. Should I be concerned? My throat does hurt quite a bit...does that mean I might have strep throat? I sure hope not. I want you to be a healthy baby, so I'm being careful not to eat anything wrong or do anything wrong, but I worry I might hurt you somehow. I know I read all these things saying this is safe and this is safe, but then there are those other articles that say practically everything is dangerous for the baby. Could it be that the mold is keeping me sick? I don't think so, but what if? I just don't want to worry about harming you, Baby. I guess it's inevitable. I hope you're okay, Baby. I hope I dream of you.

Love,
Mom

Nausea

I think I'm feeling my first bouts of nausea. This morning I've felt a bit queasy, but not too bad. I think I'm coming down with a cold, too...which wouldn't be a very good thing. I have a slightly sore throat and a runny nose. I wonder if it's from the fan at night. I would be fine with it running as long as it doesn't blow in my face, but it blows in my face and I don't like it.

We did go to church today. It was a little uncomfortable; I think I still am so used to the structured service that a protestant service that is pretty much non-denominational made me uncomfortable. I just had a hard time getting a lot out of the church service. Perhaps we can go to a Catholic service next week.

We'll see.

Symptoms

I keep thinking my symptoms of morning sickness are going to kick in, but I've been holding up very well. I hope that I can get through this without the violent vomitting; I really don't think I could handle that. I would like to think that I would just progressively get larger in the tummy and nowhere else, too. But that's not likely unless I work out every day. I'll try logging what I do daily for exercise. I don't think I want to try and log everything I eat, though...that would just take too much time. :)

We're headed to the gym...I think I'll hop on an elliptical machine for about 45 minutes. We'll see how I feel...

Happy

It's just very exciting to think that I have a little life growing inside of me. I'm so excited and just happy thinking about it. I don't know what to say to it exactly yet, but I'm sure with time, I'll have lots to say and think about with it. I do wish I knew the gender, though, so I don't have to keep calling my baby "it."

So happy...

the first posting

hello, blogging world. i've started many-a-blogs trying to think of various different topics to write about, but this has got to be the most important: my marriage, my husbad, and my newly discovered baby in my belly. :)

on tuesday, july 3rd, jeff and i decided to take a pregnancy test because i was late, and it came up positive! i was still not a believer, so later that day after dinner, i took a second pregnancy test...and it was also positive! we then called both our parents to tell them the news. i think secretly i was still quite in disbelief, but on wednesday when we went to the waterpark (4th of july!), i stayed careful and quiet.

today, thursday, the 5th of july, i went to the tmc to get an official test to find out if i was really pregnant or not. i gave my sample to the lab and told her i'd wait for the results. she told me to check with the front desk to find out the results in about 15-20 minutes. as the time ticked by, my heart started racing and i wondered what the results would be. when the clock hit 15 minutes, i went up to the front desk and asked for the results. the only think the desk clerk told me was that i needed to see the doctor. i knew that was a good indication that i was pregnant, but i did everything not to show how excited i really was. i sat back down with a grin and waited for the doc. when the doc called my name, it was the doctor i had just spoken with regarding fertility and she was surprised to see me. i thought she had already seen the results, but apparently she hadn't because she asked what i was there for. after explained that i thought i was pregnant, she was really excited and checked the results. when the screen came up, there was a large print of "POSITIVE" next to the HCG hormone in my lab results. she turned to me and said CONGRATULATIONS! i was sooooooooooooo excited!!!

now i have to make my first prenatal appointment to find out exactly when i got pregnant so i can start dating my pregnancy. my due date is 4 march 08!

I'M SO EXCITED!!! i can't wait to hear its first heartbeat.

i'm pregnant!